Actress Tori Spelling opened up about her recent divorce filing from husband Dean McDermott in a raw, emotional moment on the debut episode of her new podcast, “misSPELLING.”
The Beverly Hills, 90210 star revealed that at the time of recording, she had not yet informed McDermott that she had legally filed for divorce after 18 years of marriage.
Spelling expressed how nervous she was about having to break the news to her soon-to-be ex-husband.
“I have to call him right now. He’s at work. This sucks,”
The podcast captured the tense moment when she attempted to call McDermott, leaving him a message requesting to speak with him urgently.
“There’s this weird thing that I didn’t know about before that you have to be careful with your ex. It’s a he-said, she-said, who filed first. I had to file and go through the process and then once it was accepted and publicly posted, then I’m allowed to call and fill in my ex.”
When McDermott returned her call during the recording session, Spelling could be heard informing him about the divorce filing. Afterward, she confided in her friends present telling them that she had “never felt more alone.”
“I don’t feel worth loving. That’s the truth. And that’s something that’s just in you, it’s not something I wanted or created. That starts when you’re young. [And changing it], that’s not easy to do… I don’t know if you can.”
Despite their nearly two-decade union and five children together, the actress disclosed that she had contemplated ending the marriage for around 15 years. She candidly admitted that the relationship likely should not have lasted as long as it did.
“We always say, ‘Hey, it made it 18 years. It shouldn’t have made it 18 years. And I think he would say the same thing if he and I had a real heart-to-heart. It would have been over a lot sooner.”
Tori Spelling further cited “red flags” and “anger issues” as contributing factors to the breakdown of their marriage.
Her candid revelations shed light on the complexities of their relationship and her internal struggles leading up to the decision to legally separate.
